[dropcap]M[/dropcap]y name is Danisha and am 16 years old. I am a freshman in a high school in Irving, TX. I have come from a hard life. I have been in an abusive home and a drug home. I’ve been disowned by a lot of people. When I was ten years old, my parents were both in jail for drugs. I was sent from Dallas, TX to leave with my grandfather in Arkansas. Up until I was thirteen years old, I was constantly raped and molested by my biological grandfather. I had hatred towards him and have had thoughts of killing him but I am not going to do it because I know God is killing him right now. I’ have done every kind of drug out there and taken all kinds of pills. Once upon a time, I swallowed twelve pills at the same time and passed out in a college party. God knows what happened to me that night.
I’ve had a lot of boyfriends. Half of them were not even my boyfriends, I just slept around with them because it was my way of telling myself I was beautiful, needed, and somebody loved me. I have been beaten up by a lot of boys especially my so called “boyfriends.” I have a scar on my face where one of them cut me with a box cutter.
I have been caught in a trap house before, selling weed, cutting it, and actually using it. Whatever you want to call it, it is not the way to go. It will always lead to bad consequences as I have learnt the hard way. Boys are nothing to me right now because I have come to the realization that all they do is get a girl pregnant, leave her and move on to the next girl. I have come a long way and I thank God that I made it to High school without getting pregnant, shot, killed or paralyzed like some people that have not done half as much as I have in my sixteen years on earth. It is a miracle nothing happened to me! I have stolen, robbed people and been robbed as I hung with the wrong crowd. My life has been really though!
Since I accepted Christ into my life, I like school now. In the past, nobody could even pay me to go to school. I used to skip school regularly. I would skip with a whole bunch of boys and be the only girl. I would skip to go and sleep with them, all of them at the same time. I had a really bad attitude, possibly the worst attitude ever. If someone told me something, or asked me to do something, they would either get a cuss word back or a crazy look. I used to fight everyday. I once went up to a girl and hit her so hard with a brick that she passed out. I stayed there until the police came and took me to juvenile. That is not the place to be either. I got beat up by a couple of people while in there. Being in juvenile will definitely not help your record when trying to find a job.
My life is different now. I want to be a writer. I want to write books and share my testimony. I have a mother that I love to death, but I pray that God will touch her. I try to stay away from drugs, but it is hard to do so when they are sitting right in front of me. I am a journalist for my school newsletter. I am in the choir, homecoming committee and sign language committee. I play every sport out there except for tennis. I work at the church. I cut the the yard for them. I have tried to apply for jobs, but it is not in my best interest because my attitude still needs some work. I am strong on the outside, but when it comes to my family and people I love I get really emotional. I want to finish school and go to Georgia State College. I want to major in writing and also be a pediatrician because I love babies.
My dad’s side of the family doesn’t want to have anything to do with me. When I tried to tell them what my grandfather did to me, they were in denial and they wouldn’t believe me. I believe it is a curse that runs in the family where fathers rape theirs daughters and uncles rape their nieces. It wasn’t supposed to happen to me. I used to think that bad things used happened to me because of the way I looked and I let that bring me down. The only way I knew how to hold my head up was by doing drugs and being bad, getting into fight. But I made it though through all the hard times. I am here today to tell you that if I made it, you can too. All you have to do is believe in your self and have God help you.